just visited my old blog and realised what a happy person i was before this year started. i totally read through alllll my posts, thats why its 4.28am now. & i havent do a single piece of homework! grahhhhh stuff them all into my mouth and munch them up like cookie monster >;(

found out that i was already being quite depressed at the times nearing the eoys already because of one,two people in the class who were hurting me but later it became better(: so at that time i was quite quiet and there was once i didnt really talk more than 10 sentences a day. and my posts said i was a chatterbox lawlll;x but talking to people on audi makes me high so it wasnt that bad. so i was okay again at the end of the year. then starting of the year it was supposed to work out okay, but someone kept pangsehing me which totally pissed me off so i was depressed again. worse, i quitted audi cz homies was quiting audi for maple.. but he actually got go back de. so it became quite bad la everyday was urgy to me. then someone went to scold me just cz i was not feeling well and had to sit down for a while during obs. ccb. so had a worse impression of the people in 3/8 and i cried like almost everyday though i only cry once or twice a year other than the kiddie days. but now i find her okay la cz her personality is kind of like that..lawlsh. then i thought maybe i should go sit with weiling cz shes from 1/3 too and yingxuan cz shes from co too but didnt really help much la. they are like damn serious and pro in their work & i'm like the opposite. even fiona finds my failings horrid. if i still dont pass anything i will have to take the freaking o level papers zomg. anyway, at least now nuer and delia is there (: actually its kinda cool la, as in its like it has to be both of them add up tgt. but then when i talk to them, its like gay talking only not really that wat. dont really know how to say. and now i really feel i cannot open my stuff to livia already & we re like quite far apart although we meet during rs for fashion cluster. so i am stuck to bottling again. isnt there some nice girlfriend out there to talk to x.x can rgs shard the actors out of the school too, although she has already copied me, shes like obviously copying the other people too and shes..rly horrible&disgusting sry.. i know i shldnt say such a thing but ya. esp knowing her from pri schl, shes a flirt and cannot survive in a girls school. sry to bitch. shes already copying by taking off her belt and stuffs. okay enough, will wait for my dreams or inner self for the solution. loves!

i need self controllll!

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